that is why i have decided
when the world is against you and the people who have all the strings
it becomes their power
is taken from you floorboard by spotlight
and the disenfranchised
we are no longer committed to physical institutions
but the psychic lock and key
especially in the Deaf-world, so tiny
with ridor lightning-quick dispensing rules from "hey, tell..."
to "okay, tell..."
suffocates and the lights
(so there must be someone Deaf to sit there and agree
it is true)
i remember dorm b staff before i graduated
"we thought you lesbian what-up"
"first night before freshman year we caught you in the tub with another girl"
oh, but that girl had a ferocious bite on her
already sent someone to have one treated
who says no when a threat is a bite after you've witnessed three assaults
and two years later it turns out
she was sexually abused by both parents and their friends
"hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha so anyway i'm sorry but hey
it heartened back to innocent days, back to when we could just take baths with friends
"yeah, you didn't do anything weird, so
looking in is nonsense
and looking out is a trap