this is what years of sexual, physical and emotional abuse can do
i recognize myself less and less, and sequestering myself from assholes
who say i must admit i'm lying, and on top of that allow them to call me ugly if i want to be Deaf
and from my creepy family and sociopathic mother
has been great--until
david started hitting me because it goes RIGHT BACK to fatso
right the fuck back
i have never, not once
been really jealous, and i never talked to any of the "other women"
it just seems to me that life is life and life is long and humans suck at fidelity
but maybe it's because i know joe (not santini)
really, besottedly, with idolatry and what little he could afford
loved me
i just wrote jeff's wife back
and somehow it feels like a relief
but
who am i
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